Regrets

I'm in a self-reflective mood again today and fortunately had a good portion of my lunch hour to myself to "reflect" before colleagues joined me in the conference room (reserved for our lunch use). While reflecting, I got to thinking about regrets. I have long had regrets about things I did or didn't do in the past. I have regrets about what I'm not doing in the present, and I know I'll have more regrets in the future. Some say you should live your life so that you have as few regrets as possible when it's time to leave this world. I used to think that too, but now I have to consider that a regret can also be a saving grace. A few weeks ago I was struggling with an issue and was calling myself all kinds of coward for not acting on it. I regretted not being able to take a risk. However, now that I've had time to think about all of the pros, cons, obstacles, & etc, I'm glad I held back because I think any actions taken would have been a mistake. My feelings on the matter are starting to change. I think I've been operating under an illusion and need to ground myself in reality for awhile. Fortunately this is one of those times where I don't have a deadline or any sense of urgency so I'll have plenty of time to think things through before it comes up again. I don't know. For now, I'll just continue to live my life and my thoughts will work themselves out into a coherent form.

You're probably wondering what I'm talking about. Well, too bad, I'm not sharing. :P