Quandries...

For awhile now I've considered shutting down my blog. The enthusiasm and verbal diahhrea that I used to have for sharing stories and thoughts has dried up. Most days when I look at my blog and think "I should blog something", I find that my mind is blank for topics or I'm no longer interested. Or..that interest is a small spark that lasts only as long as logging into blogger.

The same could be true of my other hobbies. I love quilting and am enthusiastic when it comes to deciding the fabric, colors and etc. Then it comes time to actually MAKE the quilt and poof! There goes my enthusiasm. At that point it becomes work, which competes with so many other things that I have going on at home -- home improvements, painting, cross-stitching, watching Netflix movies, cleaning, cooking, exercising, reading, and the myriad other tasks that have to be done on a weekly basis.

I don't feel like it's burn-out but I may be headed in that direction. Or, maybe it's just creativity that's burning out. In the past around national novel writing month I'd be thinking about storylines and whether or not I wanted to attempt NaNoWriMo. Now the stories are a brief thought upon the mind and then poof! Gone.

When I look back on how I spend my days, all I get is the impression of maintaining. Maintaining life, work, home, pets...while escaping into movies and books. I work on mundane projects like going through recipies or play Runescape to occupy my time in the evenings (while watching movies).

So, I have to wonder...is this what life becomes? The drudgery of routine? Or is this the equivalent of a mid-30's crisis? Quandries, quandries...